Grow up Sean

It's a night with whole lots of mixed feelings. I was trying hold my emotions in my heart, filling up with disappointment and frustration. My heart was bleeding in the cinema even though I'm watching a comedy.

My plan didn't work at all, perhaps I should be more realistic from the beginning and I should have expected the outcome to be that. It took me four years to convince myself that there is no chemistry between us. Love is not an accounting issue whereby credit balance should always be the same as debit balance. It's neither a mathematic equations which will give a definite answer.

Despite so, I experienced the no-regrets-though-failure feeling. It's just part of myself and I will move forward. Hopefully I will be better in any relationship next time. Good job sean.

Exposure

There are so many uncertainties in this world. The world is changing, flooded with tonnes of information. There is no way of being coward and don't dare to explore any possibilities that seemed to be impossible.

I'm lucky to have some role models around me and non-stop challenging themselves to their limit which I will definitely won't attempt in the past. Now, I just hope to expose myself to more varieties, different fields as well as different possibilities that could happen in life. I need more exposure.

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I have no ideas why I started blogging after stopping for so long but maybe I should follow my heart and expose myself to different extremes.

Love_Whole hearted

Maybe it's true that i never put in 100% in anything in my life. Seriously, it's quite sad to realise that. However, look at it from the bright side, i notice it at the age of 21 instead of 40. Hmm, from now onwards, it's just about maximisation of my life. No procrastination. No doubt. I want to leave no regrets on every decisions made though it might not always be a positive outcome.

Perhaps it's the time to love someone whole heartedly again with no regrets.

Happy Chinese New Year to myself, a crashing bore.